Summer’s been over for about 3 months now, and I’m still not used to going to school. I never feel like I have enough time for myself, I don’t do anything on weekdays because I know I have homework to do and I have to go to bed by 10:30 or I’ll hate myself in the morning. I get up too early and go through the routines of school, which I spend most of my time bored or reading.
I come home and I’m too tired to do anything other than watch tv, play video games, or go on the internet. I never want to go ride my bike, go on adventures, hang out with people, work out, read, or anything that requires physical or mental energy because I just spent eight hours on the most inane treadmill constructed by man.
When the weekends come, I find myself panicking to make time for hanging out with people, realizing I have to hang out with a dozen different people in space of two days and never having time to make it work (especially with me trying to catch up on sleep), and just postponing hanging out with the remainder of people to the next weekend, where I go through the same routine again.
I’m getting agitated and stressed more often than ever, when I used to never get like this, because I’m constantly worrying about getting my newspaper interviews done, my photography project finished, my math grade up to a tolerable level, on top of me being exhausted, wanting to watch a movie, having to cook my dinner (which I used to love, but more often lately feel like its a chore on the weekdays.).
And on top of this, I’m going to need a job soon, which will probably take up even more of my free time and make me more miserable.
I miss summer.
Take less classes? I would have died the last couple years of school if I didn’t have first period off. Also, you don’t HAVE to hang out with “dozens of people”. Why not just see a couple people you really like instead of stressing yourself out about “all of the hangouts” you have to have? You’ll have plenty of time to be Mr. Popular when school’s not kicking your ass.
I can’t take less classes until my senior year.
And I really like all of these people, its not an obligation, I actually want to see all these people.
Reblogged from The Good Humor Man He Sees Everything Like This.
November 22, 2009, 2:17pm









